Loneliness

Alone and desolate I wander
On the roads long abandoned
Within my mind,am trying to find
Something…
Something lost in oblivion
That something is “us”

As the ebony sky cries with me
and dark clouds covers the moon
As the nightangle croons in the night
Shadows of the past
follow me
Down the forbidden memory lane

The trees sway with an unbidden symphony
And beetles sing hauntingly
And I remember
Our days together.. the bliss
I remember.. your touch.. your kiss
And when the wind blows through my hair
My lonesome heart howls in despair

Trying hard to fill this void
Failing yet again to avoid
That faint glimmer of hope
And yet again I wet my pillow
Late in the night
I pine in bittersweet sorrow

Loneliness
a bitter pill to swallow

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Mother

Those little moments that we share
Stolen from time
Days of joys, love and care

Warm nights in your lap
As you created magic with words
Alive and absurd

Lazy Sunday afternoons
Singing wayward.. offbeat tunes
drooping eyes to your croon

every morning full of chaos
Wake up alarm..
Your voice so cross

And the evenings spent in wait
To and fro on the porch
And you come through the gate

And one day you didnt turn up
Oh who cast an evil eye
On my over flowing cup

Since that day I have never been same
Waited every since but you never came
And I shed a lonely tear

Ever since then I am bereft
No one to sing to me
No one to care
No one to say I will be there

I hear your voice in reverberating silence
I see you coming through the swirling mist
I know you are not ever coming back
I do not know why I still persist

This void in me no one can fill
I miss you so much oh mother!
How can there be any other?

Voices in my head

Voices in my head
Do they ever dread
Silence… unreachable

In some corner of my heart
hidden under many layers
A lost child.. Some dreams thwarted

Voices from the past
In a different role cast
Ever changing .. ever lingering

These serenades
Will they ever fade
Into nothingness

Will they ?

She


Your dazzling smile,
a mile wide,
Ocean of grief it hides

Your twinkling eyes,
Sheds tears of pearl,
When alone,
in the bed you curl

No one comes to stop that tide!

Oh maiden fair!
Your feet are bare
As u trudge in pain

Laden with responsibilities
Guilt and duty
Are your booty
As you walk with trembling unsure steps!

Scarred is your heart,
Scarred your soul
And no one to hold..
To console

No one seems to care!

So tired you are.. so alone
Despair. your companion
You.. Fate’s minion

My angel come into my bosom
Oh the unsung symphony
the unheard harmony
Rest awhile
Rest.. in me with a smile

Death beckons….

journey unknown

Away from home,
I wilderness I roam
Wilderness so desolate
Is it too late?

There is darkness all around
No one is to be found
To comfort
Cant anyone make an effort?

In stillness of the night,
I fight,
A lonely battle
Someone come and startle!
Me…. Is this fatal ?

I want to flee
I want to run from me!
But where??? How???
I do not know!
Cant anyone show ?

The coldness of night chills
Tears in my eyes fills
In memories I am drowned!
Won’t anyone come around?

This road is long and weary
And the forest deep
The surrounding is so scary..
Wont anyone come along?
wont anyone peep?

Evening

An evening to remember
Few words.. soft and tender
Over a cup of coffee
Few moments shared
Few memories made
As the evenlight fades
street lights glowing.. cozy!
A link formed slowly and yet strong
Its not that we belong
Strangers on the road of life
Two steps we walk along
to separate at the next bend

Hues of memories


Few scribblings on paper
Long forgotten.. words that taper
I remember those days.. remember all of them

Frolicking .. having fun
Walking on the dew soaked lawn.. walking in the sun
Together .. A mayhem

chattering long in the night
Conversations that soon became a fight
Conversations that lasted longer than the moon in the sky

Evenings on the D C H
Talking at a stretch
About… careers dreams ..Everything under the sky

Hanging on the wall
Looking towards the rainbow and the rain fall
Getting wet… that July

The study time in empty classes
Countless cups of tea.. drunk in glasses
A warm hug… when tension was high

Struck under the bee hive
Laughing and yet scared.. you stand by
Receiving scoldings yet saying.. I did survive

Those walks to the temple.. our secret nook
Sitting in silence by the brook
Aloo bhajiya.. Mirchicha techa.. we partook

Returning late long after the deadline
Lying left and right.. with expressions benign
Running away to the room with you struck making excuse

That worried phone call
As I dint let you know.. was on a waterfall
With newly formed friends .. you lost your fuse!

Singing songs in the canteen
Bunking classes.. without being seen
Assignments copied .. always a ruse

All those memories we cherish
I am sure there are more you can add with relish
Crazy Days n nights of hostel ..
colors of my life,Colors with different hues

Memory

Long after the birds are asleep
Long after the moon hides
behind the cloud
Long after the frog sleeps,
beneath the shroud

I wonder if you think of me
Wistful longing ,
Waiting for the sense of belonging
I wonder,
Where you will be

As the star twinkle in the sky,
I remember another twinkle,
Of your eyes
As we stared in each others soul,
dazedly in love
Radiant in happiness,
Wonderously aglow.

Those days have long past by
We fell apart,
things went awry,
And here I lay,
on lonesome nights
Searching for answers,
Wide awake
What was it that wasn’t tight ?

Soon its dawn ,
flowers wake to the drowsy lawn
And the clock chimes, with a lustful yawn
Its time to leave the past behind
As today’s schedule come to mind

One more night passed away
Giving way to listless day
I wish I could forget those moments,
Lose them down the memory lane
I wish i could hide this pain.
Guilty tears, shed in vain.

Some verses

P.S: I am feeling very very uninspired however, yesterday there was this poetry contest where in I wrote some verses.. Few are good while rest may not be that good. But each one of them vere inpropmptu hence have placed it here:

Suicide??
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I committed a crime
desecrating the shrine
My body,
With cuts and bruises
As blood oozes
Like mannequin I stay
my life wasted away

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Time??
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Ashes of time
swept away in wind
Time doesnt freeze ,

As body burns ,
A new journey begins
And past mistakes rescinds

I feel they are 2 haikus what do you think ??

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Death
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Death is not an end
It is just a bend
Down the roads of experience
Coz every day we die a little
Each time, it breaks, our heart so brittle
Death, in you we can depend

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This one is trite!

We all commit a crime.
Each moment of our life
Every breath is a crime
After all we got to survive
It is the situation thats criminal

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Now in reply to few verses directly:

In reply to:
self realization is when,
you gently nurse the wounds,
which your crime might’ve caused,
then even your suffering might end,
you can live without grief then

Isnt this just fine ?
Inflict the wound then nurse in time
What if someone’s life you mime
Can we forgive him then ?
Words my friend so easy to give
But remember to forgive you got to live!

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Light remains ever in the sky,
Whether at night, or at day,
When the sun gives way to the Shadows,
The stars and the moon illuminate my way

Light is naught, If i dont see
Without my sight they cannot be
Is it not true then,
I am the world and world is me ?

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Bit light the moon gives,
Sun is always required.
Why does the sun give way to shadows,
When its need is dire?

Shadows are needed
So that light is heeded
For without the pain
Won’t happiness be in vain?


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the pleasures,
for which you call life a ‘gift’
i think it to be,
another one of god’s thrifts
a result of his skillful ploys,
from one boat to another,
our life drifts

Drifting wood on the river never drowns
A man with hope never frowns
Be it a ploy as you say
Would you like it any other way?


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Light is there as shadows occur
And shadows, to let light be
Without silence, is there any clamor?
Without a lady, is there any audor ?
In a man’s life,
Dark and the white
Two perceptions of the same light

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I see the world,
As my eyes unfurled.
How can I champion my dear one
Until i know that the evil deed is done ?

I am incomplete,Cant deny that.
So is this world that I look at

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I still wonder why we seek happiness
It gives joy i agree, but leaves such a mess
Sadness is constant, ever so loyal
then why don’t we give it, treatment so royal?

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Sadness is real, as much as joy
Failure and success, just a buoy
Life my friend, is just a decoy
Accept it or not, we are just a toy

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I hope you enjoyed it as much as I enjoyed writing them hence keeping it for posterity

P.P.S: I am wondering if i should complete few of them into full fledged poems ?? Few I feel are already complete!